Finding Myself

24th October 1945, shortly after World War II, The United Nations was established with the sole purpose of bringing peace to the modern world. 24th October 1987, I was born with the same purpose ;-P. Erik Erikson (the Freudian psychologist), theorized that now I'm 21, I'm moving out of the 5th phase of life he termed 'Identity Vs Role Confusion'. I never did have a full idea on what he meant, but well, I guess what he tried to say is that by now, I’m supposed to have my own real identity, or else I will end up having confusion about my roles in life!

Have I've found my identity?

Guess so. ..Few years before, I can say that I spent my lifetime pondering upon questions of identity. I was more concerned about what I appear to be in the eyes of others instead of what I really feel I am. In the words of Natasha Bedingfield: “The slightest remark would embark me on a journey of self-doubt”. I can still remember how I used to get angry, hurt, or otherwise frustrated when people reject my ideas, tell me no, or give me some other form of disapproval. But I did learn a lot from the past few years. I gave myself a break. I reminded myself that even in a landslide election victory in which a candidate secures 55% of the vote, he or she is left with 45% of the population that wishes someone else were the winner. Pretty humbling, is it?

The point is: This is my life. It’s a brief candle. I won’t spend it trying to be what other people want me to be. The question I should be asking right now is: “Am I who I wanna be?”.