Saturday, April 4, 2015

Keep Calm and Finish Housemanship

Today, as I was doing my job in the wards one of my colleague made a quick remark of me "well, you seem to enjoy working". I was putting notes on the computer, while playing Echosmith's Bright on low volume on the phone in my pocket. Head bobbing to the tune.

Yeah, I was happy.

I gave it a thought, just a year ago, I hated my job. I woke up feeling nauseous, trying to brush my teeth was a challenge as to not induce vomiting. I had palpitations as I near the hospital entrance. I jumped at every notice the staff nurse gave "Doctor blood pressure patient bed 3 low", "Doctor, temperature patient bed 6 spike", "Doctor, doctor, doctorrrr mana discharge note???". It was overwhelmingly crazy, I admit it was a tough environment.

Today, I admit I am still not one of those passionate and dedicated houseman who would stay back at the hospital to learn something new. I finish my work fast, to get back on time to go for my NGO meetings, to reply emails, to get in touch with investors, to prepare for my next talk. But at least I no longer hate my job. It instead felt fulfilling. Morning drives used to be full of wary imaginations of how the ward would be full, how the rounds would be horrible. Now I drive to work with my brain thinking about...nothing. What will be will be.

I guess as you expose your brain long enough to any challenging environment, your brain will adapt to it sooner or later. The secret is to keep pushing on. The moment where you feel that you are losing out and about to give up, that was when you push the hardest.

For those new houseman out there just starting out, if you feel that you are living through hell, I understand, I was once just like you. But if you keep pushing on you will see enough patients and learn and identify patterns of diseases, patterns that allows you to predict the next course of treatment you should initiate. Patterns that are, in a sense...remarkably beautiful as you discover and bow down to Allah's promise that there is a cure for every illness in this world except for death.

So keep marching on until the sun comes out, and one day, you will be able to say to the staff nurse, with confident, in a most calm and collected manner..."rilex, run 1 pint normal saline dulu, slow sikit ah"

10 comments:

Muaz Nabil said...

ya, agree. awal2 mmg mcm tu. especially bila masuk new posting dgn tagging, nak belajar benda baru n new procedure etc.
after a while, life will insyaallah get better, especially toward your last few posting (even if it is O&G).

once you finished your housemanship, no matter how shitty it is, you'll definitely smile back remembering all those memories. Time to march on as an MO.
life will be different. Most of the, much better insyaallah:)

ME said...

Congrats!

Unknown said...

tahniah n enjoy ur life . :)

IBU LILIS MALAYSIA said...

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bekerja sebagai pembantu gaji tidak seberapa
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saya minta angka sama MBAH LIMPAH
angka yang di berikan 6D TOTO tembus 100%
terima kasih banyak MBAH
kemarin saya bingun syukur sekarang sudah senang
dan rencana mau pulang ke indo untuk buka usaha
bagi penggemar togel ingin merasakan kemenangan
terutama yang punya masalah hutang lama belum lunas
jangan putus asah HUBUNGI MBAH LIMPAH
DI NOMOR HP: 085~312~407~999
tak ada salahnya anda coba
karna angka ritual MBAH tidak perna meleset
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Unknown said...


saya pak junaidih. posisi sekarang di taiwan
bekerja sebagai buruh bangunan dan
gaji saya pun cuma pas-pasan
setiap gajian selalu mengirimkan
orang tua di kampung
sebenarnya pengen pulang tapi
uang saya tidak cukup.
sempat saya putus asah dan secara kebetulan
saya buka2 internet ada seseorng berkomentar
tentang MBAH jonoseuh. katanya perna di bantu
melalui jalan togel saya coba2 menghubungi
karna di taiwan ada pemasangan
jadi saya memberanikan diri karna sudah bingun mau berbuat apa lagi.
saya minta angka sama MBAH jonoseuh
angka yang di berikan 4d untuk pemasangan taiawan tembus 100%
dan saya menang 250 jt terima kasih banyak MBAH jonoseuh
kemarin saya bingun syukur sekarang sudah senang
dan rencana mau pulang ke indon untuk buka usaha
bagi penggemar togel ingin merasakan kemenangan
terutama yang punya masalah hutang lama belum lunas
jangan putus asah HUBUNGI mbah jonoseuh DI NO: 0823 4444 5588
tak ada salahnya anda coba
karna angka ritual MBAH jonoseuh tidak perna meleset
daningat kesempatan tidak akan datang untuk yang kedua kalinya..!!!

IBU TUTI TKI SINGAPUR said...

saya PAK SLEMET posisi sekarang di malaysia
bekerja sebagai BURU BANGUNAN gaji tidak seberapa
setiap gajian selalu mengirimkan orang tua
sebenarnya pengen pulang tapi gak punya uang
sempat saya putus asah dan secara kebetulan
saya buka FB ada seseorng berkomentar
tentang AKI NAWE katanya perna di bantu
melalui jalan togel saya coba2 menghubungi
karna di malaysia ada pemasangan
jadi saya memberanikan diri karna sudah bingun
saya minta angka sama AKI NAWE
angka yang di berikan 6D TOTO tembus 100%
terima kasih banyak AKI
kemarin saya bingun syukur sekarang sudah senang
rencana bulan depan mau pulang untuk buka usaha
bagi penggemar togel ingin merasakan kemenangan
terutama yang punya masalah hutang lama belum lunas
jangan putus asah HUBUNGI AKI NAWE 085-218-379-259
tak ada salahnya anda coba
karna prediksi AKI tidak perna meleset
saya jamin AKI NAWE tidak akan mengecewakan

wallaweyh said...

Salam doctor, i know they are many pathways for doctors after HO. Since i studied abroad for medicine , I'm a bit unfamiliar with the career pathway for us as a doctor here in malaysia. If you don't mind, i I would like to know more about how did you end up being a HBB doctor. Hope you can share about it, eg; the things i should consider if i want to take the same pathway as you

wallaweyh said...

Salam doctor, i know they are many pathways for doctors after HO. Since i studied abroad for medicine , I'm a bit unfamiliar with the career pathway for us as a doctor here in malaysia. If you don't mind, i I would like to know more about how did you end up being a HBB doctor. Hope you can share about it, eg; the things i should consider if i want to take the same pathway as you

wallaweyh said...

Salam doctor, i know they are many pathways for doctors after HO. Since i studied abroad for medicine , I'm a bit unfamiliar with the career pathway for us as a doctor here in malaysia. If you don't mind, i I would like to know more about how did you end up being a HBB doctor. Hope you can share about it, eg; the things i should consider if i want to take the same pathway as you

Unknown said...

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